i woke to

i woke up to a buzzing sound.
i'm allergic to bees so my immediate reaction was fear.
i mean it was loud, and it woke me.
i looked around, laptop was closed.
alarm clock off, cellphone not vibrating.
i couldn't figure it out until i looked up.
in the window beside my bed was a ladybug trapped in the window.
i was first shocked that it was that loud that i would be able to hear it.
i opened the window and freed it.
and then i sat there.
how often do i feel like i'm screened in, screaming and no one can hear me?
how many times have i been just staring out at the world that i so desperately long to change and live in, yet i can't get out of the glass box, my cage. how i long to fly.
to be free. but then i thought about something else.
i heard the ladybug, who hears me when i'm in a similar situation?
i believe with all my heart that God does.
it doesn't make sense, look how small i am to him, he could squash me in a heartbeat if he really wanted to.
yet, he hears my buzzing, he hears my discomfort, my longings, my pleas and my prayers.
i wake his heart to free me, to save me, to hold me.
it really just blows my mind.