maybe

i want someone to hold my hand,
and tell me when it's raining that the sun will come out soon.
i want to have someone draw me a picture so that i can put it on my bulletin board.
i know you exist but i'm getting weary.
i don't want to be cynical but it's hard when i'm surrounded by cheap imitations.
i find myself not connecting, because i know ultimately it'll be a sham.
it's easier to pull away if there's no lasting emotions attached to it.
i want someone to walk with on the beach, who will wear scarves with me, and let them blow in the wind.
who will button up their vests, and take pictures in the leaves.
who will play music with me, and drink hot coffee, and watch my favorite movies.
maybe what im describing is just a friend.
maybe that's all i need.