catch 22

"You are the dark ocean bottom
And I am the fast sinking anchor
Should I fall for you"

i'm trying to realize that timing is key.
i can't drop anchor too soon,
i need to see if it's the right place to station myself.
i need to know if this is where i should be,
but your waters are so inviting,
and i have a calm that i've never felt,
but i don't wanna jump ship.
i can give orders that sound good to everyone,
but if i have to follow them it's harder.
i'm just trying to trust.
trying to hope.
trying to dream.
i'm done looking for a place to fish.
i have my eyes set on the catch,
and that's all i see.