I am preparing for a wedding and the thing that I love most besides the fact that I'm marrying my best friend is that we both like to keep things simple. Neither of us like things over the top (thank God because a groomzilla is not attractive). Not only are we getting married but I'm moving up to Syracuse. I've lived in my room since I was about 10. That's a good 13 years worth of crap in here. Now I'm no hoader (secretly I am obsessed with those TV shows) but I do have a lot of stuff. Last week I donated four bags of clothes and shoes that I haven't worn probably since high school. I also gave my sister my desk which forced me to go through my drawers and purge whatever I could. As overwhelming as it is I love being in my room now. It is no where near completed but my drawers are dissolving and it will be a lot easier when I need to pack. I also have a problem with wishing my life away. I set deadlines, or goals and wish for them to get here sooner. For example, the second I start to drive back to Long Island after leaving Ian I begin focusing on the next time I see him. I don't think it's wrong, I love him and just want to be with him. But I find myself wishing that the time would speed up and sometimes I miss what is going on right now. I don't think God wants us wishing our lives away. I remember being a kid and wishing I could turn 13. Believe me, that's one wish I shouldn't have made. I mean really...13? What an awkward time to want to arrive at. Either way I think simplicity frees my mind to put things into perspective and enjoy life where I am at...as hard as it is.
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