dress me in love.

Last night I picked out my wedding gown. It is absolutely beautiful and I cannot wait to wear it on our special day. My mom, sister and best friend were there for moral support. They encouraged me that I looked beautiful and I believed them. I felt beautiful and even got a little teary eyed. I was shocked by that.

This whole process is teaching me a lot about myself. Actually being with Ian has taught me a lot. Seeing the way that he looks at me, hearing the way he talks to me, and knowing the way he treats me it is obvious that this man is in love with me. I am head over heels for him and have never been so happy.

One thing that we both realized is that we have stayed consistent. When you are initially interested in someone you daydream or wonder about them. Sometimes this builds up who the person really may be and they are already on a pedestal. This is a risky place to put someone. It also puts a lot of pressure on them to amount to your idea of them. I know I've done this in the past. However with Ian we both took each other for exactly who we are. He didn't make me out to be perfect (just a little shy from it...just kidding) and I didn't look to him as my savior. We had healthy expectations. I can confidently say that the guy I first talked to is exactly the same man I am preparing to marry. He's 100% honest, and genuine. I also learned how I carry myself. I'm amazed everyday that he loves me the way he does. It opened my eyes to a perspective of how Jesus feels towards us. There is passion, concern, love,  commitment, and a healthy jealousy (but that's a completely separate blog entry).