tightrope

"so i told her i loved her, and she told me she loved me. and i mostly believed her, and she mostly believed me."

trust.
it's a really hard thing to understand how to let back in.
especially if the track record isn't so hot.
but you'll never know if you don't try.
it's like a story my pastor told on sunday.
there's a guy who was amazingggg at walking a tightrope.
he got so good that he would tightrope over niagara falls.
this obviously gained a lot of attention.
one day he brought a cart with him.
he asked everyone standing around "do you think i can make it across with this?"
everyone said "oh yes"
so he picked one of the guys out of the group,
(probably the guy with the biggest trust issues known to mankind...
i'm just guessing cause isn't that always how it is?)
anyways he says to the guy "if you believe me, hop in!"
imagine that?
i'd probably find some excuse besides the fact that I COULD DIE!
i mean i'd ask for his mental health history,
for a list of medications he may have been on.
that's just who i am.
maybe i need to take a risk once in a while.
isn't that how you know you still have a pulse?
blood pumping through your veins?
adrenaline surging?