i can totally identify

i can totally identify with the following passage that i'm going to quote. not only has this been a major lesson that i am still in the process of learning, but this has been one of the major things i've struggled with over the past couple years. being content where God has placed you...

"I longed to walk along an easy road,

And leave behind the dull routine of home,

Thinking in other fields to serve my God;

But Jesus said, "My time has not yet come."

I longed to sow the seed in other soil,

To be unfettered in the work, and free,

To join with other laborers in their toil;

But Jesus said, "Tis not My choice for thee."

I longed to leave the desert, and be led

To work where souls were sunk in sin and shame,

That I might win them, But the Master said,

"I have not called thee, publish here My name."

I longed to fight the battles of my King,

Lift high his standards in the thickest strife;

But my great Captain bade me wait and sing,

Songs of His conquests in my quiet life.

I longed to leave the uncongenial sphere,

Where all alone I seemed to stand and wait,

To feel I had some human helper near,

But Jesus bade me guard one lonely gate.

I longed to leave the round of daily toil,

Where no one seemed to understand or care;

But Jesus said, "I choose for thee this soil,

That thou might'st raise for Me some blossoms rare."

And now I have no longing but to do

At home, or else afar, His blessed will,

To work amid the many or the few;

Thus," choosing not to choose," my heart is still."

(From Streams in the desert.)

Isaiah 30:18 "Blessed are all they that wait for him."

I think this is even harder when you've gone out onto the "mission field."

I so long to be there. And the life I'm leading seems at time insignificant.

But God I pray you would use me, wherever.