today

and everything has been in progress up until this point,
this is where it's at. this is what i've been working towards.
and i'm not saying i've arrived. i do feel like i've made it to the next stage.
this will probably not make sense to anyone, if anyone is readying this,
but i say all of this because i've had my ups and downs,
i've put effort in before and now it's finally working out.
i'm trusting God, i'm walking out on the things i believe he's spoken to me.

visible

"God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything Be my everything Be my everything Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything"

the truth is that praise is needed when you see God moving in your life, and when you don't seem to know what's going on. God deserves worship on days that you can't stop smiling from the awesome things He has provided, and on the days you feel like you have nothing to offer.

no matter what, He doesn't change.
Hebrews 13:8 says,
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."
that means you can always rely on Him.
1 John 4:15-17 says,
"If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him."

i find rest in that. i feel like right now, in whatever stage of life i'm currently in some things are "dying" and other things are springing up into "life." things that i totally thought were going to happen haven't, and i'm continually surprised by what turns out being "right" for me. it really shows me that God knows what i need way more than i think i do. my prayers have changed. the things i ask for have changed, because i want His best. for example i went on a job interview. the place was awesome, the atmosphere, position, boss, manager, etc. whole nine yards, i thought it was THE job. the one i had been praying for. i even thought the schedule was good. i left pleading to God that i wanted it. i didn't hear back, but they told me in a week they would let me know. in the meantime i applied to other jobs, and went on one interview. turns out this schedule was BETTER than the other place, the pay was BETTER than the other place, and guess what, they hired me immediately! i really do trust that God knows exactly what i need when i need it.

chase

so not only is chase donating $1 million to your favorite charity which i have been following invisible children for years. but now they have also donated $1 million to the Haiti Relief fund.
click on the links to learn more.

Haiti

All I am is just a traveler,
With dirt on my hands.
All I have is dust in my pockets,
And you in the end.

Sometimes it feels like we're never gonna make it out alive.
When nightmares close us in.
Heartbeart, take me, away from all the troubles that I see,
Oh, it's all what we make it, it's all what we make it, oh. Matt Hires-You in the End

My heart breaks for this country, for those across Port Au Prince and surrounding areas that are suffering so much. I have compassion for those in this country and all over the world that are on edge, waiting to hear from loved ones, waiting for hope, waiting. It's devastating, and heartbreaking as the entire world watches this catastrophic event unwind. There have been stories of hope, and there has also been extreme loss of life. I think if anyone doesn't feel something towards this situation then your heart needs to be softened. Haiti already an extremely poor nation lost the little but of structure they had. If you can donate your money. If you don't have some money, then pray. Either way pray because this isn't going away overnight.

Thank you God for being all powerful. Thank you Jesus that you died on the cross for my sins, and for every one elses. I pray that you would move on behalf of the people of Haiti. Open up aid, open up provisions, sustain the survivors, bring into light those covered under buildings and trapped, deliver them God. Just like in Exodus 3:7 you had compassion of your people, and you were concerned with their suffering, I pray that you would hear the cries and prayers that people all over are praying. Please God use this for good, turn this around, bring hope.

crash

i will be still and know that you are God.
i almost got into a horrible car accident today.
it was enough to shake me.
i heard the girl's screams, airbags deflating, and tires blow out.
the ground shook. the entire thing was oddly confusing.
and it felt like time stood still.
it's just amazing how life can change in a second.
your choices that you make have an effect.

set the fire to the third bar

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

snow patrol ft. martha wainwright

low rising